Enigmatic.....

This blog post is brought to you by proxy of another excellent post by Andrew Dubber over at NewMusicStratergies

enigma
/inigm/
• noun a mysterious or puzzling person or thing.
— DERIVATIVES enigmatic adjective enigmatical adjective enigmatically adverb.
— ORIGIN Greek ainigma ‘riddle’.

I think any person who isnt shallow can remain an enigma even to their closest friends and family.
The only time i ever feel like i've truely expressed my inner pain or most difficult emotional feelings is through my lyrics when i song write.
I just cannot verbally express in conversation my feelings/anxieties/fears, i get frustrated because the words just arent there to convey whats in my head.
When i write/compose there is no pressure of time, i can dissapear into my own head while strumming chords and leet my mind form the words in its own time.

When i converse with my partner or friends or family members, a conversation requires a constant flows of words, there is a pressure of time. Feelings dont care for time, and when time forces me to try and find words for my feelings, my feelings get pissed off and frustrated!

Blogging is currently hit or miss for me, I dont read many, and I still havent found my own ryhtym and subject matter for my own, so its currently disjointed.
Like all things in life its a learning process, but just like real life, you'll only give as much away in a blog as you would to people you just met in a pub (unless you create a genuine alter ego and remain anonymous)

I am me, this text is me, text can be more widely misinterpreted than talking face to face but that is beyond my control, i write as me, not as anything else.